What is my personal worry?

I do have a worry.  Secretly, I wonder if JD will shorten my life.  That is why I try to take as much control as possible when it come to my JD.  But, it is hard!  Sometimes things happen that I have no control over.  For example, when I am sick, my sugar is out of whack.  Will that affect my health in the future?  Yes, everything adds up.  I try to check my sugar as much as possible so that I could maintain some kind of balance, but my sugar still is of whack.  It frustrates me!

The other night around 8p.m., I had a dinner at Olive Garden (cannot resist!).  I had some bread sticks, chicken parmigiana,  and some salad.  I did the right amount of insulin for what I ate, had perfect sugar for about two hours, and then I went to sleep.  I wake up at 2 a.m. and my sugar is 380!!  What the.......??  I felt terrible and was so frustrated.  I did insulin to bring my sugar down, woke up an hour later, and my sugar was the same!  What happened to the insulin I just did?  WHO KNOWS...!  Eventually my sugar came down to a normal level, but it was so unnecessary.  I tried to rethink about what I ate that might have caused this spike in my sugar, but nothing I ate could have caused this.  Maybe a few bread sticks, but I always eat 'bread' and that does not happen.   

Frustration is all it is!  I just hope that I am okay for my future!